As a light in this world, I believe it is my role to illuminate a spotlight unto others for the great work they are doing in their life.
Many people say I’m brave because of the leaps that I take in life. Leaps such as applying to the prestigious School of the Art Institute of Chicago, standing up to people in high places of power, and for moving to Florida without having any friends or family here. Yet, people don’t see the fear and doubt that boils up within me behind closed doors. Although I have been blessed with many talents and abilities, my biggest weakness is FEAR. So much fear that it causes me to become paralyzed and have spiritual panic attacks. An attack that knocks the wind out of my body and breaks me down to my core in tears. Attacks in which I simply can’t see the light or a way out. Continue reading “Moving Through Fear”
In the past two weeks, I found myself revamping major areas of my life. I noticed myself doing the same unproductive thing on my down time after work. Going home and shutting my mind off by watching Netflix. I was watching A Different World and I just finished the Scandal series (5 years later) ha! So, I transitioned to Being Mary Jane. I’m a couple episodes in and I find myself resonating with her a lot. I started putting sticky notes of positive affirmations all over my house and keeping myself accountable to reflecting on a daily/nightly basis in my journal. Overall, I realized how discontent I was with my free time.
Packing my suitcases was the most extremely stressful part of this experience. Time was escaping me and I grew frantic trying to think of everything I had to do. My blue suitcase contained my valuables: Passport, Social Security Card, My mother’s gold necklace, pictures of me as a child and of my family, and my Xbox of course!
(You can check out part one here)
I’ve written multiple times about my struggles with Mental Health. I’ve talked about Depression multiple times over, Anxiety, ADHD, Medication, and Social Media Addiction. I’m going into another phase of the process. Getting essential help.
It feels good to be back and I am so excited for the changes that should be happening in the future for Everything’s Magnificent. I plan to be back on my daily writing plan and all is right in the world as I head towards my final year as a graduate student at UNC. On the personal side, I’ve accomplished one of my personal life goals. I’ve finished reading the Bible from Genesis to Revelations.
I’ve been reading through the Gospels and really meditating on its words. I feel like I am trying to read what God is writing and it is really changing my outlook. I’ve shed plenty tears and have been anxious about my everyday life. God’s lesson to me recently has been, “don’t worry about that.”
*ding* TIME TO CHECK IN!! We’ve made it to mid-May and almost half-way through 2017. How are your New Years Resolutions/Themes/Goals doing? Are you still holding on tight? Did you give up months ago? Let’s talk.
This week is all about physical health. I’ve been reflecting on the things to try to get me to peak physical condition. I have a major birthday milestone coming up and I have been thinking that I have to take care of my body before it’s too late.
I typically would have written another Friday Vibe on music that I have stumbled upon but I just couldn’t this week. I have listened to Joey Bada$$’s All-Amerikkkan Badass and Goldlink’s At What Cost and believe both are amazing projects, but this week I wanted to talk about how music is helping me through a change.